Mellowed out today
My life is not about finding a husband.
My whole collegiate career is not about finding a husband.
Finding a husband is not my goal in life.
My goal in life is to please God. In doing so, God will either send me a husband who will walk with me in that journey or will I find contentment in being single.
Being born a woman is an awful tragedy. Yes, my consuming desire to mingle with road crews, sailors and soldiers, bar room regulars—to be a part of a scene, anonymous, listening, recording —all is spoiled by the fact that I am a girl, a female always in danger of assault and battery. My consuming interest in men and their lives is often misconstrued as a desire to seduce them, or as an invitation to intimacy. Yet, God, I want to talk to everybody I can as deeply as I can. I want to be able to sleep in an open field, to travel west, to walk freely at night.
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Sylvia Plath (via oh-girl-among-the-roses)
I feel this way a lot of the time…. |
He’s never done with me
I don’t think I’ve gained the philosophy of forgiving yet, it’s a part of my life where I feel very vulnerable and if I forgive it will allow you to hurt me yet again possibly…I’m pretty sure God is going to find a way to force me to forgive one day but at this moment… I need to hold onto what has been done, because it makes me strong in my time of weakness…
He has everything that I ever needed… He gives me
Protection, Direction, Inspiration, Motivation, Patience, Revelation, Respiration, Reservation, Favor, Provision, Peace, Love, Joy, Strength, Power, Answers, Guidance, Wisdom, Council, Understanding, Direction, Inspiration, Motivation, Revelation, Patience, Mercy, Restoration, Break-Through, Blessings, Favor, Salvation, Healing….. And the list goes on….
You can’t have it all….
Back to the company I keep thing… I have people around me who consistently complain about how bad their lives are and they have no good thing to say about all the great things in their lives that they should be thankful for. Why do people always want more and more stuff to add to their lives when God has and will provide your every need. Patience is virtue…
